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Essay 3 workshop
Lovey is a character portrayed in Lois-Ann Yamanakas’ story, Wild Meat and the Bully Burgers. According to Wikipedia, Lovey is a Japanese girl living on the big island of Hawaii just after World War II, in the midst of middle school, where the three stories take place.
What role does media or schooling play in shaping Lovey’s identity? How does she learn to view herself?
I think media and schooling both had a huge impact on shaping Lovey’s identity. Most children in the United States watch some form of TV while growing up, and the majority of it gives them an unrealistic idea of what life is really about. I think TV takes us away from our pain and dislike, and hatred, and (falsely) tells us about this magical world where all the people are beautiful, live in fancy homes, and have abundant amounts of money and energy. It allows us to think that there is no stress, or real-life situations, like bills, or poverty, or death and disease. I also believe that too many parents are using TV as an easy way out of keeping their brood entertained and out of their hair. In the US, allowing children to spend hours glued in front of a television set has replaced telling the child to go play outside, for hours at a time. And let’s not forget the soundtracks. Music stirs at people’s emotions, and the music picked for TV adds to the longing felt by the average person.
Lovey’s media came in the form of Shirley Temple movies, which she would watch with her best friend. Lovey believed that Shirley Temple was a perfect person, in looks and in life. A pretty white girl who starred in movies, and whose movies always had happy endings. Particularly the endings where Shirley Temple would cry, or someone would cry over her and express their love for her. Lovey longed for loving attention from her own life, and would often fantasize about her own “happy ending.” One where her mother would hold and hug her, and where Shirley Temple would cry for Lovey. Media gave her a sense of not being worthy of the kind of love she saw on TV, of telling her because she didn’t look like Shirley Temple, or have the same living situation that was portrayed on TV, she was unworthy of the same things Shirley Temple got. I think TV blinded Lovey to what she did have. She couldn’t see the love her mother had for her, or how special and unique her heritage was. But we all feel that way. We all long for what we don’t have, or view what we do have as not good enough.
At school, Lovey was subjected to teasing by her fellow classmates and ridicule by her teachers. As this story took place after World War II, I can see how these types of behaviors were more acceptable. The teacher was the authority figure, and allowed to act in as a parent. But these days, while bullying by other students is still happening, ridicule by teachers, especially in the US, is not acceptable behavior. The teacher has gone from the authority figure, to a pawn in parents hands, having to follow the parents standards. In the story Obituary, Lovey was the subject of derogatory remarks because of her nationality, which was a combination of Japanese and Hawaiian. Other students make fun of her for being Japanese, and for having physical Japanese features, and her Teachers made fun of her for speaking Pidgin, a dialect of English that she grew up with. One teacher went so far as to tell her that the way she speaks is un-American. I think in that era, people who didn’t speak or act like mainland citizens were sent to school to be changed into this ideal of what an American was. You couldn’t have a different accent, or live your life like from another country. A good example would be my own mother. When she moved to the US from Puerto Rico as young adult, she was coached by family, friends, neighbors and teachers to put aside her culture, and start behaving like an American. Which meant no speaking Spanish, no cooking traditional food, and no native dress. This subtle brainwashing flowed to my brother and I. We did not learn Spanish growing up, or learn about our mothers culture. Everything was centered on our white American fathers culture.
All of this torment gave Lovey a hatred for school, and a hatred for being herself. She was ashamed of not being a perfect English-speaking white girl, of not being smart. Ashamed of her family, and of how she dressed. She withdrew into herself, and tried not make attention. She even redirected her shame and anger at another student, trying to find someone to help share the blame she felt for herself. Lovey acknowledged that she often though about her own death, and fantasized about how it would release her from her tormentors. But she was particular about it, and didn’t want to die in a couple of specific ways. I think she was hoping that if she died, everyone who ever made fun of her would feel shame, and would realize how much they influenced her death.
Besides family, media and school are major factors in shaping how Lovey views herself. She loathes her looks, speech, dress, and intelligence, and thinks that if she were different, more people would like her, and she would feel the love that she longs for. Unfortunately, many people grow up feeling this way, and these emotions are carried into adulthood, creating a circle of insecurity that becomes more and more difficult to overcome.